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Grateful emptiness

It’s been almost 9 years to the day since I’ve expressed my thoughts here. I suddenly stopped feeling the need to do so… until today. Or yesterday by the time I’m publishing this post.

September 15th, 2022

It all started like any other day: coffee, work, meetings, emails, more coffee, more meetings… until 4:30 pm when suddenly time stopped and I froze. I felt a knot in my stomach and goosebumps all over my skin. My eyes were watery even before reading the announcement. I felt it, I knew it in my gut, somehow I’ve been expecting it for some time without ever actually being ready for it: the end of his professional tennis career, the end of my hopes of ever seeing him winning Wimbledon live, the end of tennis as I loved it.

For more than 20 years he has been the heart of this sport, the man to beat, the pinnacle of grace, elegance, talent and class. Every tournament came to life as soon as he entered the grounds, stepped on court or attended a press conference. Win or lose, his presence would always convey peace, warmth, calm and confidence to everyone watching.

Laver Cup – Geneva, 2019

During his matches, I have cried tears of immense joy and gutting pain more times than I would like to admit. I’ve stayed up long nights, skipped classes, ghosted friends, rejected dates and ended relationships just to watch him play with every chance I got… I knew it was a limited time offer and that I had to make the most of it, although it was never and will never be enough.

I chose to watch perfection, to see it up close, to study it. Sometimes I could anticipate his every shot, every grunt, every “come on”, every fist in the air. Watching him, I felt alive, alert… connected. He was my energy boost, my motivation, my inspiration, my faith in humanity.

I’ve had a (one-sided) relationship with him for 21 years, since I first saw him playing against Sampras at the Championships in 2001. My appreciation, respect and love for his game have never wavered, nor will they ever falter. But for now tennis has lost its spark, the lights will be dimmer on Centre Court as the GOAT has left the tour.

We might survive, but it will be a bleaker existence without his kindness, humor and modesty.

Next weekend I will be there, saying goodbye and crying my eyes out while he will play his last matches of his professional career.

Thank you, Roger! It’s been an honour and a privilege to be your fan!

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Dor de duca…

Recent, m-a apucat un dor de nestavilit de calatorit; calatorit in sensul de inchis ochii si ales un punct pe harta, urcat in tren si drum bun. Anul trecut, cam pe vremea asta, aflasem de un proiect fain – Travel means freedom – realizarea unui e-book  format din povestile a 111 oameni despre ce simt cand calatoresc, sau ce inseamna a calatori pentru ei si m-am decis sa trimit si eu un articol pe subiectul ‘Travel – as I live and breathe’. Articolul meu n-a aparut printre cele 111 din carte, dar m-am gandit sa-l postez aici.

Travel – as I live and breathe…

“Adventure is a path. Real adventure – self-determined, self-motivated, often risky – forces you to have firsthand encounters with the world. The world the way it is, not the way you imagine it. Your body will collide with the earth and you will bear witness. In this way you will be compelled to grapple with the limitless kindness and bottomless cruelty of humankind – and perhaps realize that you yourself are capable of both. This will change you. Nothing will ever again be black-and-white.” – Mark Jenkins

“All journeys have secret destinations of which the traveler is unaware.” – Martin Buber

source: google.com

 What does traveling mean to me? That’s a difficult question. Traveling is a way of life, my way of life.

Through travel I’ve had the chance to discover new places and to meet amazing people.

When I’m on the road I just feel like the world is mine, I could go anywhere…All I need is my backpack and a camera. The unknown awaits and I’m beginning my exploration each time filled with hopes and dreams. I love the feeling of not exactly knowing my next step, of having just a vague idea of what I’d like to do or where I’d like to go next. I love the new smells, the exceptional sights when I least expect them, the unusual, funky tastes and the mild wind brushing through my hair on sunny days.

I always like to pick my destinations depending on season – warm, lively places in the summer and cold, snowy locations during winter. Once I’ve figured out my main destination I start thinking about means of transportation. Traveling by train is usually the most convenient when I want to have freedom and the opportunity of backpacking around a larger region. I choose planes when I want to explore one place in particular and discover all the dark corners of a certain city and I won’t say no to hitch-hiking on relatively small distances between cities. I’ve never stepped outside Europe yet, but I’m taking it bit by bit, breathing it all in. The world is huge and I want to savor every piece of it

So what is traveling? Well, it’s me – it’s a perfect mix of my personality – spirit of adventure, unknown, a little bit of home in a big pile of new, speed, light, memories, creativity and most importantly connectivity. Travel connects me to myself and to others. With each journey I learn something new about the world and about my true self. No matter how many crossroads or obstacles I encounter during my trip, I always overcome them and never look back. Traveling makes me stronger and more confident with every step I take.

 As we all know, every corner of the world has its own charm, and a large part of this charm are the people, the communities. Meeting new people and living for a few days as you belong in their society is always an experience worth having. One of the most important reasons I enjoy traveling is the opportunity of being part of different environments and learning diverse customs and traditions, merging beliefs, sharing stories and opinions, and witnessing all types of cultural movements.

 To my mind, traveling means fast-forwarding through life and history whenever and wherever you choose, taking with you the best parts and learning the most valuable lessons. Enjoy!

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